Im mad at me!

It wasnt the way i'm,but rather it is ..i should say!
Im sailing..in daily doings!

Im going to college daily without knowing why..I used to start early for timebeing..but of no use..when im on time they dont consider abt latecomers..but when im late they do mind! But that's not why I'm Mad!

I used to listen lectures..ppl say Im not!But that's not why I'm Mad!

Im inside the cabin, nodding to every peevish statement they pose on me!But that's not why I'm Mad!
Im mourning..people asking me y r u laughing!But that's not why I'm Mad!

Im humming my own music and tapping my own feet..but people feel tired when they watch me..!But that's not why I'm Mad!

Im preparing my own food..enjoying my own hell..ppl used to be satirical about my cooking!But that's not why I'm Mad!
I feel like throwing all the things out..screaming out loud!But that's not why I'm Mad!

Im reading a book..and getting senti,lamenting like a philosopher!But that's not why I'm Mad!

Im watching a movie and im crying along with the character!But that's not why I'm Mad!

Im taking my own decisions..Im making my own reasons!But that's not why I'm Mad!

Im making my own rules..and breaking my own principles!But that's not why I'm Mad!

Im serious..,but the same time im fun loving!But that's not why I'm Mad!

I used to listen the quote "People are not your problem, they are your purpose.",which i just don't believe!But that's not why I'm Mad!

Im unknowingly vindicating my enemies..blaming my friends!But that's not why I'm Mad!

I used to hurt by people and expect a question "are you hurt?!"But that's not why I'm Mad!

Im hurting people and asking them at the end "Did i hurt You?" But that's not why I'm Mad!

Im apologizing desperately to ppl without knowing they can forgive me or not!But that's not why I'm Mad!

Iam at a time feeling I Can & I Can't,I do & I dont,& then Im Laughing at my ownselves,This is why I'm Mad at ME!