whats happening to me these days
why every truth im facing is turning as bitter lie
hmmm..when the things are changing...i found im in a state like standstill..,when they are standing still..i found im moving!quite embarrassing..
for the past few days..not exactly few..(i think i should say morethan few)i do have the feeling like some one plucking out something from me..may be the above sentence is typo (im uncertain whats that feeling exactly is?!)...it would be better in other way like i have been plucking out some thing from my ownself..[no..NO..,not like this!]onemore chance..am i twitching..r anybody else making me feel that..[not really!].Another shot here,am i really feeling that truly..? yeah..I do feel!(uff..atleast iam confident enough with this statement)..
still,It is really a great mystery..to entangle,what iam exactly feeling..!i donno it is bad r good..,bt i know im just feeling it!
the days started with a known word [which was well known for me from pasty past]..,i thought, i kept myself all alone on a glazy grim..[i do have that delusion like thing at that moment..i.e; god or me whoz,responsible?!]..No big deal..again another dawn..asusual shown me the taste of retribution..,i told myself,let it!another ball in thechain..,next moment i identified myself in an unmollifiable grief..,iagain tried to make myself reassured..,whats there?!one more n more..|
sequence got hooked up..one more ebb to the embarrassment..the other one attached to previous.. everyday i used to fight with my lexicon..to find the apt vocable that fits me for that respective hazy day....am i preplexed...am i jinxed?..,am i crazy...?..!no lexeme best fits my situ!
ummm,i thought,i do want time..!i surmised that chetan can mollify me..No, his article neither soothening nor arousing..it was ok type..next comes arindham...umm...nope becoz im not in a mood like hearing a lecture..i do know..what he wanna tell..but his version issome what punching with heavy tag lines..again segal..oliver was irresistible..i do admit..but i cant give a damn,hez absolutely melancholic..heart weighted more when i came to its end...,
and now My anger is against myself..,refrained...unchanneled....chagrined..,of course it is gauche attempt to mollify my grief with much normal things...im still waiting for a miracle with barrack's strategy.
Neither books nor music are in my way..!people are asking me like y r u like this ...,are u always like this...?n more..umm afterall i dont know what happened..,n happening too!for those questions,i just shrug n say I wonder, WHy iam?!
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