Foggy days are on spinning wheels

Its the moment of 15mins before i turn from teens to twenty..some frail feelings started in my
mind ...i dint experienced it much before...!the time ticked 12..the moment.., i observed keenly, some sonority in my cardiovascular activity..,some timbre in my voice...hmmmmm

Woke up this morning with yet another birthday staring me in the faceof 20 and People started wishing me ..if it's the last year..n before days..i would have thanked all heartfully, for all their kind wishes..like "all days r urs..all ways r urs"!!now im murmuring "damn it"under my breath
and then I wanna chastise myself for being meanspirited!

Perhaps it was sounding pretty silly..,ofcoz i didnt want to admire myself in cold compression of guilt..lowspiritedness! I didnt want to endup with more bitter,angry pessimistic way..i didnt want to search for happiness which is not reaching me,not feeling i deserved it..,i really didnt want to curse these wishy-washy dayz!!

But i do want to Believe that things could change some day or other!

Till now..i know many dusks n many dawns in my way..Nothing is listening to me in these eons.., except my blogroll..!so i started dabbling in my activities like penning things as many as
possible..!

As my astrolgically influenced acquaintances can call my pesent sequence of time as period of
saturn entrance..,but i cant help except accepting all the things which are coming in my way..,n
fight for them if i can!

After-all iam an amateur reader..,but i stuck up with many novels which are of fantasy, romance,tragic,adventure..n many stories with unnatural endings with false starts..,Earlier..i thought that im no longer in to those..n i thought anything less than peerless was unacceptable, but abnormal turns made me to acquaint to!

To every one whose eyes have met mine to see disdain,disappointment or venomous envy..,i would like to apologise and ask your forgiveness for my behaviour..,u c ,i wasnt looking at u.., at those times..,i was looking at me! But today onwards i dont want to see that in my eyes anymore

And yes, my days are not passing but they r running on spinning wheels more and more every
year... it's like it's running away from something or to something, it's very weird!
People usually says "it's never late to change" but I think this sentence has a more theory
meaning than a pratical one. but Now..,i welcome all days of rest of my life with audacious hope

all n all ..,i enjoyed the day with my frndz n obviously with my feelings!So here I go, onward
with 20!

My orkut status message:wen im 10 i wanna be 20..n Now,im 20 but i wanna be 10 again!

Ps:ofcoz this b'day is unlike many b'day's before!